So...Lizzy got me kinda addicted to the Black Butler Series...and I've started watching it, got my friends too as well...and I just really really love it, the art styles really nice, and i dont know what it is about it, but, while looking on the interwebs..............................................


Sebastion


Ciel


Grell

I said i wasnt going to get any of these dolls.....but now i think I will....>_<

You are a Badass Uke!

Other uke admire you, some seme fear you. Despite your sometimes flaming appearance, you can even fool other people into thinking you are seme with your mischievous, manipulative attitude, but when push comes to shove, your true submissive nature emerges. It takes a seme with enough intensity to challenge you and keep you satisfied, and your perfect match, the Don't Fuck With Me Seme, knows that all that naughty teasing just means you want the punishment.

Theres like 3 more dollheart oufits i want to get, but I have a few other things to focus on XD. Here is Eliza in the new christmas outfit. The underskirt is a short little dress. Its all so well done and cute. and I love her little hat. I have the matching boy outfit too but thats for polaris and hes spending time with his boyfriend Rune right now.

Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The Wronged.
"'ve come undone and all hopes of mending me are gone because the pain took my soul. Can't you see? The only one who can put me back together again is me."
The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow, reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by the goddess Persephone and their sign is The Teardrop, or Broken Love.
As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and may be hard on yourself. You probably have been hurt in the past by other people and can sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You don't usually let other get too close to you, but you are very good at mending your spirits back together by yourself.

Half of your friends would attend before they ever knew...Why they are going...To this party I'm throwing

r11. Division... - Tasteful Nudity

Anael: I know I'd better stop trying...you know that there's no denying...I won't show mercy on you now...
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to...cause you have turned into my worst enemy?
You carry hate that I feel It's over now...what have you done?

- r.10 The Lost Souls... - Strong Language-

Locke: You have to stop forgetting. It hurts you. It hurts.. others... you have to wake up.

The Manor - A large mansion that now belongs to Eden Hastings after the passing of her late parents. What started out as a small handful of friends living together soon exploded into a large population of strange newcomers.. and the very old house mysteriously continues to attract more and more residents… what kind of mysteries could this manor hold?

So Xerxes got his white fer outfit....god how much i love it on him. Eric decided that he needed a tiara, and at first I was like......but he doesnt have an outfit to go with it, then it dawned on me about the fer, which i had just gotten. So Eric bought it for him. I really love that he spoiled him like that :3 I love my mans hehe.

My twins are almost complete. I preordered some wigs with Aquire, so i have some backup ones as well as a nice one for Cassiel. Anael has a wig coming from Sat, thats the same style as the one he has on, but its going to be blue :> ans i need to give him piercings. I still dont like the bottom lobe on the ear XD still might sand it off. Also i need to order a pair of green ED eyes for them.

I'm just really glad that i got them both done so quickly

I just got this in the mail the other day. I really think X looks cute with it XD

I finally got my Sard...so now I have my twins XD....and poor Anael has no hair >_>....though he might have to borrow O's or soemthing, I didnt take a pic with the horns, cause it was still drying.

So yes, welcome back Anael and his sister Cassiel

I finally bought my own digital SLR camera, I was tired of using my dads all the time, and I really didnt like how heavy the thing was and bulky. I'm not sure what model he has but I know it was a Canon, so I did some looking about, saw how i really liked the pictures that the Canon Rebel Xti was taking, and decided to pick one up. I also got a Sigma lens for it, was taking a few pictures and I really like the camera. Even with the larger lens, its still not nearly has heavy as my dads, and is really less bulky. I have to go and pick up some filters later today to cover the lens and I'll also probably have to pick up a card reader, since my laptop doesnt take the compact flash cards. I'm really happy with it.






I took these two with the new camera, I had some other ones but they got really washed out :< so I'm going to have to learn how to play with the lighting and all.

I'm also unsure about X's eyes, he usually has a light green, and these might be too dark/too big.

So as time has passed....ten years to be exact, Xerxes finally got to meet Locke again. Xerxes really wasn't knowing what Vai was doing, just following her. He had seen his daughter, who now is 15, and to him shes still his five year old little girl. Locke told X what he was, what hes been hiding from all this time. His body craved just one touch, even the faintest of a hand brushing against his skin. X felt that he had to leave when Locke overdid himself, he felt that this was his fault, that in a way, he poisoned Locke with what he was, and made him suffer. Even though he had "forgotten", suffering the most amount of heartache, like from the beginning of time, till that very moment, and it back-lashed onto those in the hierarchy. Had Vaieh not been with him at the time, he would have fully lost himself and awakened. Xerxes has steps in which he slowly wakens more, eyes turning to black pools, then he starts to bleed, both blood tears and his markings as well. He will have problems with his memory still, pieces so incomplete, not understanding how long he actually had been asleep, and how long he was awake, and its going to take time. For the both of them.

The problem now is, X has now just let everyone know where he is, and this leaves him in world of trouble. Not only does he have the dilemma of having to chose between his soul-mate and his child, he is going to have a lot of people coming after him, namely, his Father.

Then there's also little Lucien. Hes still a mystery, though he seems normal, things that were once "hidden" are now showing. X one night in one of his usual awaken states, spoke of those child Lucien really is, and once this was made aware and brought to the surface, things started to change with Lucien's appearance. He has a dark spot in his white hair, and his eyes have changed. For now Lucien is with Polaris, being watched.

Set is completed, all his tattooing is done. The eyes were the only thing though I had to fit in his head, since his eyewell is small, but I think he turned out really nice. Now to get him in the mail XD

So I managed to get X a new wig, but its just not doing it for him...this is now the second wig I've tried since switching to blond again. Its driving me crazy. I have a wig arriving with the Sard order do I hope this works better, its kinda like his previous white one, but we'll see ~sighs~. I also realized that, Sage and Anael will be home finally tomorrow....which is great cept....Anael isnt going to have a wig just yet >_< I havent decided if he needs all blue hair, or black hair yet, probably blue since the majority of my crew is either blond or black haired.

I managed to snag up my Canon xTi camera with a Sigma lens, so that should be here this week, and then I'm going to end up selling my powershot because I want to focus on learning to use that camera, maybe I should take a class at LCC for it.

As far as other dolls......still waiting on shoes to come in for dolls and friends....and i need to hunt down a brown wig for nico still. I also will have to find my Soony a body, I kinda have been trying to find one with the breasts sanded off...but I might just have to do that myself. the Camine's body still hasnt showed but i think that will be this week...then its to hunt for a wig for him as well and some blind eyes. Still dont know who either of these two will be.

Projects-----Painting
♠ Bluejedi81: Set - Beryl head & Luts body - Body tattooed completed
♠ Bluejedi81: Janelle - Elfdoll Sooah
♠ Bluejedi81: Peng - Fairyland MNF Shiwoo
♠ Bluejedi81: Hitori - Fairyland MNF El

So...I will probably never utter the word...sparkles....but this is what made my night tonight.



He is a LE Luts Dion Version 2. They decided to rerelease the boys Dion & Cian. If i still have my Bory or if Dmitri was still in the story, I would have snagged the Cian more then likely, but something just makes me really really like the Dion. He might end up being Von more then the Frey. I got him a version 2 body in my order, which is a newer more posable body then the one that my Abadon came with, but I cant get Osirus a new body. His realskin was ordered in early may of last year, and that was a very yellow tone. Now their resin is this.....peachy color. Damn you luts and not making anything consistant.

Other then that, I have been completely useless today. My heel has been killing me like its bruised so every step just gives me pain, and sometimes my foot feels like its going to crack but it wont and it aches. I'm going back to the doctor tomorrow, couldnt get in today.

-Random note-
My friends and I ordered some wigs.....they arrived in chigaco, and from there come here. I have been tracking it. They went to millwalkee, then to the U.P., and now they went to Green Bay, but nothing has changed since the 9th.....I'm going to call the P.O. tomorrow if i dont get them. It seems like someone mis sorted them, but its annoying.

So....pertty much not alot has changed, I managed to finally get my degree in graphic design, which only took, I donno six years to accomplish ~shakes her fist~ damn you LCC and fucking people around. I was having a hard time finding an internship, which is required, and ended up finally getting one with these two ladies and did some medical illustrations and drawings for a book called "the real skinny on weight loss surgery." I also did some work for palladium books in their Rifts series, and splicer series. You can look me up in them, and I either just fell under DSS (Drunken Style studios) or my own name....to which they never ever spelled my last name correctly -____- and I still work at Officemax. I know I need to find something better. I think theres just been so much going on that killed my motivation...

My mother, Janice Girardini, passed away on October 5th, 05 from Huntingtons Disease...so it will be 3 years this fall. I was never really close with her, fought alot, but alot of it wasnt her fault, I just wasnt dealing with what was happening. There are things I do now, that I wonder how much I am like her, getting interested in photography, certain music, little things that make me think about it. I did stop seeing her for a time, I just didnt want to see what was happening I think. I visited her when she was having fevers...she slept the whole time and as we were going, she woke up and said hi to me. Two weeks later she had a temperture of 108. They kept her comfortable, and both my grama and I were with her when she passed. That sort of helps that I dont feel regret because she wasnt alone.

My aunt, Helen Jamie Christianson, passed away on February 23rd, 08 from Lung Cancer. She had been fighting it for about seven years. I guess it just never really sank in how sick she really was, that and she was good about not letting people on about it. I received a phone call from my cousin, and ended up having to tell my dad because he wasnt home. It hit really hardI know I couldnt stop crying and I really miss her, she was always so very strong and stubborn, and a wonderful woman. I can still hear her laughing.

So now my family is just really my dad, grama and I. Sorry to be a little down about that, but at least to those who didnt know, thats whats been going on. I have been dating this guy Eric for a little over half a year, he makes me really happy, and i enjoy spending time with him when we can. Zombie Swan!



This has become my new favorite hobby...I have taken to collecting Asian ball-joint-dolls / BJD. Their very customizable, with changing their hair, their eyes, clothing, modding them etc. I've started a small business of painting alot of them for other people, mainly friends, but its a start.
♠ Osirus inatis-atis - Luts RS Senior Delf Abadon
♠ Xerxes - Luts BW Delf Elf Yder
♠ Vincent Von Rott - Dollshe NS Hound Version 2
♠ Nicolai Chaos Rasputin - Dream of Doll Homme Ducan
♠ No Name Yet - Dream of Doll Camine - Body coming
♠ Seraphiel - Volks Cristal / Tenshi SD10 body
♠ Polaris - Luts NS LE Bloody Valentine Breakaway 08
♠ Elizabeth - Volks LE Liz Head / Nana SD10 Body
♠ No Name Yet - Volks LE NS Eden Fullset
♠ Sage (Cassiel) - Soom BW Sard Head / Beryl body
♠ Anael - Soom BW Sard
♠ Minue Namiir - Unoa Lusis
♠ Sparrow - Fairyland NS Seorin Fullset
♠ Jani (possibly renamed) - Luts NS Ttori Elf / RS Kid Delf body
♠ Janice - Dollmore LE Fashion Doll Poupine W Misia No. 3/10
♠ Opheila - Volks YO-SD Tanpopo
♠ Rum - Volks YO-SD Neon
♠ Lucien - Volks YO-SD Chinatsu
♠ Puki #1 - Fairyland NS puki pipi Full Package (Snow puki)
♠ Puki #2 - Fairyland NS pukisha Full Package (Basilah Amir)
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Those to come in the mail...
♠ Crombidoll Lance Head
♠ Iplehouse LE Mars Fullset
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Wanting
♠ Crombidoll Yeon Ho A type
♠ Luts LE Camilla
♠ Luts LE Dion Rerelease - this wednesday!
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An endless emerald thread runs along
within the shadows of darkness
soon to entangle the heart
with feelings of jealousy

for words spoken out
in the heat of the moment
were not for me...
and soon the smile will no longer hide
how broken i am inside

for words spoken..
gave the wrong inclination
and false hopes grew
clouding all reality

till now i am lost
sinking in the darkness of the night
alone my heart beats
once more the tears fall
but there only emptiness to guide me

and so i say goodbye...

My friend thinks i have sever depression....Alot having to do with my moms death...which i guess would explain why i have been crying for the past 3 days or so...and it is close to her death...almost a year now....and i havent still done what i had planned to do...i just find no motivation. In anything...i thought maybe for a bleak moment...i was going to be happy again for a while...but its not going to be that way...

I hate writing these things...theres no point in it really...